Little things you rediscover...

I've recently not really been feeling myself... I've felt like i have had so many ups and downs and never really knowing where i am going. Though over the last week i just took some time to think about who i was and what i was doing and overly what i really wanted. So basically analysing my life as it is.

I first thought about how i really feel about being at uni at the moment and honestly i love being at uni as much as i hate it. With one more year to go i would never contemplate giving up on my degree but i am constantly thinking is what i am studying really what i want to do at the end of the day. After almost five years of studying media am i finally getting a bit tired of it? this is still something i can't really answer at the moment all i think is i have to pursue and get my degree to as best as i can. At the end of the day a degree is a degree. I don't think I've used my university experience to it full potential. Its given me the independence i craved but i think i haven't really taken on the life style as much as most do but i guess i still have a year to be and do as students do.

My second thoughts were about Love. Yes its a pretty deep subject but something ever so passionate. It's been difficult for me recently I'm not going to lie. There are times when you think your more in love with your boyfriend then he is with you. Then there are times when you think maybe he's more in love with you then you are him and then you could say theres that in between where you don't really know what either of you are feeling.Though in these past few days over the weekend i think i have felt what it feels like to fall in love all over again or at least that feeling where you just can't stop smiling and giggling, where you can't stop chatting and just generally enjoy the company. I got butterflies in my stomach and everything you think is a positive rather than a negative. It feels great to feel like this again.

i guess thats pretty much on what i have rediscovered. there just little things but significant things to me.

On another note I have been reading a book for the past day and not really put it down much it was recommended on the Richard and Judy summer book club and its called "The private lives of Pippa Lee" this is a book i bought not overly knowing what it was about and from the cover assuming it would be a bit of a young romance, but i started reading the book finding it a bit slow but the character being a as I'd guess a 50-70 year old women and her life with her ill husband who is a publisher who decides to semi retire from his job any who i persevered reading until i reached a page which said part two so i was like i could stop here or carry on so I'm into part two and the book has picked up telling the story of the lady in the first parts childhood and how she grew up this is as far as i have got and am hoping the book will get better and not reach a dull climax. i'm hoping for anyone who reads this i have not given much away about the book but it makes an interesting read so far. and the film which goes with the book is due out in 2009 so i shall be interested.